But instead I'm going to be honest. I'm struggling. My competition was almost 3 weeks ago and I haven't been back to the gym, or even had a single day of halfway decent eating habits. I'm drinking a beer as I type this.
The week after my competition, someone I know commented on my belly, riding out over my derby shorts, so soon after my 6-pack of competition day. I laughed it off and responded with jokes about trying to make up for lost time and gaining as much weight as humanly possibly now that I was allowed to eat, but it still hurt.
I know I need to get back on track, but I'm a little lost as to what exactly I want to do now. I'm back into roller derby full-force, but I need to figure something else out to work towards. A new workout program isn't all that helpful to me without an end goal. And that's what I'm struggling with. I still haven't made up my mind for sure if I want to get pregnant right away again or wait awhile.
While I ponder what to do next, I will leave you with a picture from my very first roller derby game this last weekend.